A little bit of lately…
I haven’t been on lately to let you all know what’s going
on in my life…for awhile every day I kept you somewhat up to date on what I was
doing, liking, wanting to eat, what to wear or simply what I was thinking
But here lately…
I haven’t been feeling it or much of anything else lately.
I have been blog “depressed” should I say. I have pretty much worked and come
home each day to either nap or watch tv. Yes, I know this isn’t like me at
all. I have been in a funk. Lots going
on in my head and around my house. A lot of emptiness I guess you could say. My
normally spotless home is challenging me everyday and no one is even here to
dirty it up or pick up after but yet it still seems to be driving me crazy. I
have finally had a garage sale and gotten then things sold or taken to goodwill
that we were interested in getting rid of. I went home to my parents house (
its only 15 minutes) away, yes I know. But its still going home to me. That’s
where I grew up. I spent 20 years there. I had my first own room, I rode my
first bike, I got my own first dog, went to my first dance, my last prom, first
heartbreak, and got in trouble…but there are good memories there! It will always be my “home.” I went through
all those childhood pictures and memories and I packed it all away for my mom
to keep. I always thought that I wanted to grow up and be a big kid, but
sometimes I do wish I could just go back to being a kid where everything is
easy. I am proud of the life that I have created for myself and worked so hard
have. I am starting a whole new chapter. I have started a whole new chapter, I
have bought a home, graduated college a year ago, just a couple of days ago and
fell in love with a guy who challenges me every day. I have always been a
planner. Wanting to know each step before it happens or where im headed because
I hate to be blind sided with things. But we just cant CONTROL OUR DESTINY.
There is only one who can…The one man, GOD.
A little bit more about my funk
My funk has a lot to do with my home..I love it so much and
I have so many plans for it, but being patient enough to actually be able to
finance them…well that’s a whole different story! I need to get things taken to
storage…but where. I have a cute little closet office to prepare and have
everything ready, but the desk…that’s a problem. It just won’t fit and I cannot
find the one that suits my needs. So therefore all of my personal and
organizational things are strewn throughout the house…which DRIVES me crazy! I
have a cute little flower bed that needs to be roto-tilled and finished. Some
pretty flowers that got way too much water and are pretty much ruined. I would
love a porch to sit on at night and for my dogs to stay in the yard. But my new
fence I just laid is already ruined thanks to the next door dogs and their
digging. I have two dogs that cannot figure out where to go to the bathroom
because they will not get off the porch. I have a handsome man who is four
hours away, and let me tell you how hard that one is. My house is quiet and
empty and my bed is cold. I know you
don’t read my blog to hear me whine and I apologize but im just in a funk. Im
trying to figure it all out. Things come up in life that we sometimes don’t
understand or know how to take them, But I guess taking it in stride will make
me a better person. I will live through it.
Tonight I want to leave you with a few verses…that I often
look upon when im in doubt, fearful, worried or scared. He is always there you
just have to let him know!
IF you are losing confidence in people
1 Corinthians 13
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does
not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor
others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of
wrongs. 6 Love does not delight
in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects,
always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But
where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are
tongues,they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in
part, 10 but when completeness
comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I
talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I
became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a
reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part;
then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
If your
pocketbook is empty
Psalm 37
3 Trust
in the Lord and do good;
dwell
in the land and
enjoy safe pasture.
4 Take delight in the Lord,
and
he will give you the desires of your heart.
13 And now these three
remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
When you are
lonely and fearful
Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
1 The Lord is
my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness
and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.
Those are
just a few verses that I turn to simply to have a little faith! I hope I didn’t
depress or bore you too much. Hopefully I can find myself soon and be back and
creative! With all of this being said, I am ready for whatever the lord has
planned for me. I will take it in stride and go with it. I will be happy and
live my life to the fullest, because it can all end in a matter of seconds.
Until Next
time MISSWHIT
