The Absolute Raw Truth about it...
What's it you ask?
This morning IT is everything running through my thinker.
First things first- I attended a Young Adult/ college class called Pursuit on Monday night. Yes, the weather was cold, foggy, icy and I should for my own safety have been at home curled up. But over the past month I'm torn, frayed, charred if you will. Why? Home life, family life, friend life are all great so please don't go jumping to conclusions that my whole life is falling apart. It's honestly about more than that. The more than that is ME. I am conflicted about something. I am unhappy with something. It's ME. But not for the reasons your thinking- "she's not fat, she has a good job, she has a good life...etc" it is because for some reason all the hard work I feel like I have been pushing for is non existent. Yes it's there. I do have things to show for my hard work. But they are just things. Right now if I was to get in a bind...shoot it better not be a big one. Because I'm not there yet. It looks beautiful from the outside. But when your missing the number one thing. IT DOESN'T always work. I am missing a solid relationship with my lord. Yes I pray, yes we go to church, but do I ask him his plans for me? Do I follow when he speaks? Do I challenge myself to live a better life? I do, but not the types of challenges and goals I should be working towards. I work every day to make my finances better for my future but the truth is unless God has a hand in it...it will never be enough we need him. That's why it was so important for me in my heart to brave the weather to make it to that young adult/college age Pursuit. I am on the pursuit of a better relationship with God, myself, my future husband, my family, friends and finances. I want to be a godly woman whom people love and adore and want to be around.
Rhinoceros
Ok, I know your confused. Why the word Rhinoceros. "I am a Rhinoceros with two inch thick skin and I will charge forward"
I recently read the Rhinoceros success- my January book. It is in fact a leadership book really pinpointing my business. But turns out I got way more out of it than just for my business. I got a champion Rhinoceros attitude. Which means that I this year in 2014 will choose to see things that much more differently. It's why at my full time job I will no longer allow things that I have no control over to bother me. I choose not to whine only to Frey my edges of conflicting more. Why do that to yourself. You have two inch thick skin remember? You are not a cow who lays in the field all day chewing it's cud. You set goals. You charge them and anything that gets In your way. Reason being I am a Rhinoceros I will not let anything get in the way of my dreams.
Just Dreaming:
●I will pay off my debt in the next three years.
● I will be a wife, a mother, a friend, a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a leader, to the best of my ability always.
● I will lead a champion team full of people who want to fight for a better life for their family...but also for other families who don't know how yet and need a way!
● i will pin Silver this year.
● I will average 2000-3000 dollars a month by the end of 2014.
● I will pay off
-best buy
-lowes
-care credit
-hendricks
-Dr McCollum
THIS YEAR!
I am a Rhinoceros- if you get in my way I will run you over!
outside appearences.
The outside appearance is what others see, right?
■ What Is it I desire for people to see when they see me?
{Strong}
{Smart}
{Happy}
{Healthy}
{Enjoyable}
{Clear}
How will I accomplish these parts of myself.
♢Strength will come from hard work and lots of determination to wake at 4:30 several days a week. To not whine when it hurts but to power through and finish.
♢smart for me this year is about passing my Certification exam that I have not had the courage thus far to even attempt again. To read and gain more knowledge one book at a time.
♢Happy will come from within. I will choose to be happy. Why? Even in tuff, untrusted times I will trust God. I will look for the good in all situations. I will choose to be happy even when I just want a good slow song and a good cry.
♢Healthy- ADVOCARE
I really don't even need to say more. But I will- I will provide myself and my people with the most optimal, tested, researched products on the planet to fill those nutritional gaps within our food catagories.
♢I will Enjoy life in which in return people will enjoy me.
♢Clear-
-skin
-makeup
-hair
-mind
-body
-spirit
In ending today (at our Pursuit young adult/college class) - Callan left us with this Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the Lord has plans for me"
Just remember those plans can be altered by your actions.
Wake up and ask God everyday...what are your plans for me TODAY.
