A true Purpose

What do you believe your purpose is in this life?

I often wonder about my true purpose…I am not convinced i have found it. Because at the end of the day I still find myself stressed over things that take time to change. I have met the love of my life, bought a cute house while only improving what I can at each points in time, i try and be organized. At the end of the day though I am unable to sleep or even turn off my brain. I have not even began what I don’t even know that I am set out to do.

I want lots of things in life; to name a few below would take days!

1. I want to be debt free
2. I want to own my own business
3. I want to be in complete shape
4. I want to be a master chef
5. I want to be super woman ( ok not really)
6. I want to be a wife
7. A mother to three
8. A homemaker
9. I want to master couponing
10. I want to blog to remember the great moments in life
11. I want to Love whole heartedly
12. I want to leave my family things when I am gone
13. I want to be a great daughter, sister, wife, mother, grandmother…and even angel in heaven.
14. I want to be strong in my faith
15. tough in parenting ( the tuff ones…are the best ones)
16. A best friend
17. a doggy parent
18. health nut
19. i want an extraordinary life

Hope you enjoyed my thoughts…because they are spinning through my head!

-Whitney

Mac

Today I am thankful that we live in a world full of choices! Choices which we make based on what makes us happy, excited, feel pretty, feel right and good! I worked at a job that I feel is perfect for me, with friends I enjoy!  I spent a couple of hours letting someone make me up! Feel beautiful! Dentist apt where I choose what I have done! I got to spend the afternoon wish my grandmother painting nails and chatting over lemonade.  I came home with a choice of what I shall cook for dinner!  Now I lay here by choice in the home I picked as my own doing life by my design.
Thank you Lord
《Whit》

Sweet Celebrations

Today was made for Celebrations! Until nearly 7 years ago my sweet Gram Celebrated her life here on earth with all of us! But for the last couple of years she gets extra cool heavenly birthday’s. Jealous huh…me too! I am not only jealous because she doesn't have to live in this nasty world anymore. But even more so, i am Jealous of a heavenly birthday because that means i don't physically get to celebrate with her anymore. I don't get to celebrate her strong willed, wild haired, organized, fun, free spirit type of life any more. she watches from above now. and i can only hope she is smiling instead of shaking her head. but knowing some circumstances we are facing here lately… i know her and i can see her shaking her head, taking something for her stomach, drinking a beer and lighting up a cig. these things were normal to her. Anyhow she is still just as special now… as she was when she left. I'm not rushing my time on earth or anything but i cannot wait to see her again one day!. Miss you, love you, and ill see you again one day! I am so thankful for the 16 years i got to have you in my life.

Whit

Thankful for 3

Well It looks like I am behind two days…So Today Ill be thankful for 3. Day One, two and three.

Day One- The Lord whom loves me no matter what! He gives me the opportunity to live life in his world- although his kingdom is much more heavenly is graceful than this steadily declining world we live in now. But i wont get into that rant…ill just be thankful god is still in control. PEOPLE GOD is still in control and if more people would turn their trust over to him, he will take care of us.

Day 2- Looked like an early morning that took several days to prep. to unload, to set up. it looked like a crowed Mall in Abilene, Texas trying to share with others  how i will live life by my design. I have been given, by lord i believe the opportunity to help people,; in many different aspects of life! i can help by a quick smile, a friendship, a way out of their financial trouble, a way to get their youthful, healthy body back,,, even a way to give their kids the dream vacation that they have always wanted.  I have the opportunity to design the life i want for myself and my future family! 

Part two was spent with good friends and family while enjoying a cold beer and Stoney larue with my main man!

Day 3- Yes i finally said three. I lie here in my chair with the silent of the house, dogs outside. cuddled up in a blanket, My lovers new Sweatpants- while he sleeps, I sit here and think about life, My plans, God’s Plan. It's kind of difficult around the family right now. So many mixed emotions. I am thankful for the stable we have and will continue to build. I am thankful for life lessons and strong medicine for healing for some family members. I am planning to move forward in my business. I am checking the reports twice to make certain i can help my down line to the best of my ability. 

 

What's awhile look like?

Well a while for me is since August 31, 2013. Have I actually posted on here...yes! I participated in some Blogtember posts, but then this really cool thing happened & well I feel guilty playing on the computer a crazy amount of time when my lover is home. So thats why posts are few and far between! As much as I love sharing our life; I actually love even more...to share it with him in person! I did update some of my blog pages earlier last week when I had some downtime off of work.

To the meat of this hamburger.
I have been doing what I do best while alone...ill call it goaling. I have been thinking about my amazing AdvoCare team, my personal banking goals, my personal debt goals; ehh my life in general and well I become obcessed when it comes to this subject. Why you ask? MY BIGGEST FEAR  in life is to fail financially. Yep I said it. Im absolutely terrified. Therefore, I obscess all the time trying to figure out " how to make the best better."  Right now, tonight, there is no end in sight! But I did in fact realize over the past year, I personally tackled with AdvoCare 4000.00 in debt, in conjunction with 11,000 household debt. 15,000 total I know crazy, huh! Then I go on to be still, quiet to think about a dear friend of mines life who at the same age is so very different. Brooke has left her family, friends, hometown and normal life for a very different, scary, exciting adventure that I, myself could never embark upon because I could never give up the life here of obsessing. What a beautiful soul she is with a true calling and passion to serve the lord. She will live in Haiti for one whole year. I sit in awe when I think of her grace and love. God gave her those things. God gave me things too, a life- that could have been gone in an instant. But im here for an all so different purpose. Deep breath, be still, he is here, talking through me. What a blessing it is for me to be able to speak, type, feel that im serving some purpose in all the different roads I take in life. Some people dont wake up with a purpose? How do they get fulfillment out of life? I lay here in the silent light bedroom- wondering what my next purpose can be? 

Deep thoughts. Quiet night. No sleep in sight. Thoughts spinning like the merry go round( faster, faster, we need another master) I hear. Im supposed to be studying. I purchsased my new study book for my CsT exam. Its here the time is here. I must not put it off again! Its out here in cyber space...as motivation! Ready set go!

♡whitney

Blogtember: How has Social Media & Blogger Changed my life?

September 12,2013
Describe what ways blogger and Social Media have changed my life?

Good Morning Readers { I hope your having a blessed day}

Blogging and Social Media has become such (important) thing to me. Although sometimes I believe it's complete poison as well. 

{Importance} 
I have had the chance to learn a great deal of Leadership training over the past year since I got involved with AdvoCare. The use of social media and even blogger help me so much because my {Voice} is able to get out there without actually speaking. Yes it is me speaking when i write something on facebook, blogger, twitter and even on instagram through the photos I allow you to see. I use these forms of social media for the better. When I was younger and more {stupid} shall we say, I didn't always use my social media for the better. I used it as a way to hide behind what I was feeling without confronting the people I probably should have, this hurt me in many more ways than I could have ever imagined. Now I strive for myself, my business to only post things that will better myself and or any situation. I have found through writing, on here, my special personal notebook, or even when I use my actual voice to talk out loud about what is bothering me, I have almost become a better, more self improved version of myself. I have learned to lay many faults down or let them go once writing. It's almost as good as my morning and bedtime talks with the lord. Gives me a sense of * PEACE*. I had never considered blogging until I started meeting with my {Shrink} , just kidding, My Counselor was absolutely wonderful and helped me really dig into me. She taught me how to not second guess myself or my gut feelings, she taught me how to dig deep and work on the pieces of myself that were confused, damaged, broken and even some things that were completely shredded and needed complete repair. These things were caused by many different factors but they all needed to be fixed in order to become the person I was made by God to be. When I started blogging it was a release and I was also able to reach in and pull out my creative side and I love to be creative. So the blog got started a little over two years ago. Although I don't really have many followers, I don't really put it out there all that much! 

[What's your Poison]

I mentioned up above that I also believed that blogging and social media use can be poisonous...yes i believe it. The reason I honestly in my heart believe this to be true is because sometimes we put WAY too much information, our even ourselves out there for the whole world to see. Recently something has been lain upon my heart regarding young teenage girls whom think that showing all of them is the best answer. Several of my friends shared a link on Facebook and I couldn't help but sit in the bank drive through with people waiting on me, because this subject has been tugging at my heart strings. Mrs. Hall from the Given Breath Blog wrote about her family and the things girls post now days and how those images cannot ever be gotten back once posted out there for the whole world to see. This post is a must read. Thanks Mrs. Hall for giving me the {Voice} to reach out to some young girls I know. I 

• Second I believe we spend valuable work, family and quite God time spent on our social media. { OK so I am typing this while working} but all of my work for now is done. Families often argue about the amount of time spent on cell phones [surfing social media sites] whether it is parents griping at kids, or spouses complaining because all the {spouse} does is "Play on that phone. "Yes, I have heard that one countless times, not by my sweets but by my father grouching at my mother. We need to trying and concentrate on who is around us while playing on social media and that way we aren't upsetting loved ones who need our love and attention. I have some dear friends whom when they are at home together do not use social media, they instead focus on family and bonding time with their selves and children. Let's limit our social media time! It's important to others (I am working on this as we speak, now that I don't "live" alone anymore.
• Social Media has been known to ruin people's lives including mine ( or so I thought at the time.) The truth behind that is God was just showing me " He is not MR. RIGHT. " That has actually worked out better than ever planned. I have a splendid life now. I am a better me. & I LOVE IT. 

Social Media has definitely changed my life over the years for the good, the bad and even the ugly. 

Have a great day!

xoxo Whitney 

Blogtember: Links to My Favorite ONLINE Shops!

September 11,2013

The Blogtember Challenge today asks me to share links to a few of my Favorite Shops! I'm going to change that up a bit! I have tons of favorite shops all over every where but I want to showcase some of my favorite{ Home Town Hits!} These Ladies and Gentlemen that own, run, manage these fabulous spots definitely know how to take care of you in ABILENE, TEXAS. If you ever stop through Abilene, Texas {These are MUST visits} 

yA Ya Gurlz: Where Janis Joplin Meets Mae West

www.yayagurlz.com/

https://www.facebook.com/yayagurlz1

Go See Summer & The Girls to get your style on!

THE HEN SHACK

www.thehenshack.com

https://www.facebook.com/thehenshack

Paige & Lori over at The Hen Shack have a one stop shop Ladies!

You can pick the perfect outfit, get your "feathers fluffed" and so much more. These Ladies are great! 

My NEW FAVORITE HEADWEAR

The Hen Shack Chix
Lori & Paige


Bucketheads
Located in the Mall of Abilene
https://www.facebook.com/ilovebucketheads
http://ilovebucketheads.com/
This Fabulous Family Can Definitely Show you what you need!
Cute Clothes, Shoes, boots, T-Shirts, Sign{age} and even stuff for your Little Buckethead!

Meet Nancy & Natalie

I Hope Everyone has enjoyed the insight for a few places i LOVE to shop!

Blogtember: A Distinct Moment When Life took a Turn

April 19,2006 is a day that I will never forget. A day that came too soon. A day I will probably shed tears over {forever} 

I think the hardest part for me is that I am FIXER.  I cannot fix this, I cannot ever change the day or the things that happened that forever have changed my life. My Gram was taken from this earth way to soon. She was my rock! One of my biggest fans. She very rarely missed anything that I did. She lived her life to the absolute fullest. She played golf everyday, went on spur of the moment trips, worked and played with a passion. She taught me so much in life but I wish she were still here to influence my Adult years like she did my childhood years. I still have one of the greatest support systems around, but I miss her yelling, cheering and advise. I know she is always with me and always still cheering me on its just a little more faint now than it used to be. I didn't ever understand her and my moms wonderful {best-friend} type relationship until now. I always used to get mad because we would have just been with her and as soon as we got into the car to drive our 15 minutes home, my mom would always pick up the phone and call her to rehash whatever sporting event we just finished. But now in my adult{ish} years I sure do understand and value the friendship i have developed with my mother. I could not live without her and it pains me {that} her mother was taken way too soon. I know she is up there dancing, jumping and hitting golf balls for joy because she isn't on this wicked earth any longer but I MISS HER!

xoxo Whitney

Blogtember: a time you were scared

!When I was a little girl I was diagnosed with childhood leukemia. This could have been one of the most trying times of my life. Although i was young, it was still a very difficult time. My mom was 9 months pregnant with my little brother. I had the best team on my side and within two years i was placed in remission. I do not remember most of this time of my life, and i honestly am glad that i cannot. Luckily ill be 23 this year and will be in remission for 18 years. But thats really not the most scared i have ever been! Childrens miracle network sent me on two make a wish trips!  One i wasnt able to stay through, but the second one my parents decided to take me on the real life simulation of JAWS! In the JAWS simulation a giant metal jaws like object came up to actually BITE the boat. Yes i was three Years old and terrrifed! I still to this day cannot even begin to watch jaws! Im {skeeeered}

♡Whitney

Blogtember: Something useful

THE BIGGEST THING I CAN PASS ON IS TO TREAT OTHERS THE WAY YOU WANT TO BE TREATED.

Blogtember: If i had Three Months

You ask?

What would I do If I had Three Months of my Life off; Here is how this story will go!

I am a small town girl with big dreams. But my dreams really don’t consist of world viewing or traveling. These things have never been in my reach! We are simple small town family that had a mansion built for us as children, but my mansion looked different than the average idea. I would love to travel one day, but truthfully I have no IDEA where i would even begin! So here is what my dream of three months off looks like.

A 3 month Getaway to an East Texas Town. Somewhere in the Hill Country! I would love to be able to go to this place that I’m painting in my mind with my pups, a good book, my laptop, tablet, phone and exist there. Don’t get me wrong, I would love for my family, friends, and most of all the most amazing man to be with me. But that’s not what I was challenged to be creative about. I love these people with my heart and soul and cannot imagine my life today without them. But when it comes to this topic my image is something different. Something like I picture my life someday. My fairytale life with my family, friends, my future family! So here it goes!

A Hill Country old Home: Miles from anything- Unseen to the human eye!

http://decornaturel.blogspot.com/2010/03/texas-farmhouse.html

The Old Barn:

Original Photo

My Dream Kitchen:

Visit Original here

The Dining Room:

Little Miss Homes Original Photo

The Bedrooms:

Master

Find the Orignal here

Guest:

Original Photo

Bathrooms:

  

Bathroom Sink Area                     Visit Here

My Dream Writers Office:

Taste with The Eyes

We Heart It

I hope you have enjoyed my Blogtember Post for the day. Maybe one day my dreams of this home and my image of a life will come true!

Blogtember: Where I come from?

Let’s start here: I come from Two Families that merged together 25 years ago in last May 14!

The Richardson side of the family came from Lubbock. My Great Grandparents lived in Shallowater, Texas all of my life. My mimi was a homemaker and my pawpaw was a farmer. My granddad Wayland’s parents I never remember meeting. He came from a big Family of all boys. He spent time in Alaska while serving his country. He came home and met my grandmother who was from a family of 5 ( 4 living). My mimaw had a twin who died at birth. The other remaining children all in live in Lubbock area. My grandparents moved to Clyde, Texas when my dad was in the fifth grade. My granddad spent his life being a CPA, while my grandmother was always  a care taker; a hairdresser, caretaker of children and then elderly adults when we got older. She has a passion for people and I got some of that! My dad graduated from High School and attended several colleges before becoming a Rancher. He has farmed and Ranched my whole life. After a fall in the Ranching business he now constructs metal buildings and does just about anything else to keep rolling.

 

The Jackson side of the family: My Grandparents on my Grandmothers side were also a cattle family. My grandmother was raised for a while on the Davis Ranch. They moved to their own Ranch when she was a child. She has one brother. I met my great grandparents but they died when i was young. But from what my mother says They always had the nicest of things. My grandmother Married Wayne Jackson to have a sole child. My mom was raised at Cal Tex Feed lot in Trent, Texas. My granddaddy Wayne did all the original building of the Feed Lot. After my grandparents divorce my mom lived with my grandmother at the feed lot until she graduated high school and attending McMurry High School. My mom graduated and became a PE teacher! My granddaddy Wayne married twice more before living in Louisiana where he died in 1994 of lung cancer!

My Parents started their home in Baird, Texas. My dad was working on a ranch and my mom was a P.E. teacher. They raised two great children literally through sickness and in health. Laramy and I are 19, and 22 (11 days from 23.) Laramy is a free spirit that goes with his flow and does just about whatever he wants. He has a great business head on his shoulders and is making a great man everyday! I on the other hand am not such a free spirit. I graduated Clyde High School in 2009 with 15 hours towards my college hours. I attended my freshman year at Cisco College taking my basics for Nursing at the time. I quickly changed my mind when i flunked math with a big fat F. I switched gears and headed toward surgery. Where you don’t have an identity really. You hide each day behind gown, glove, mask, eye wear and even hide your hair under a colorful headwear. I was accepted out of 49 people for 12 spots in the Surgical Tech program my first try! It was hard. It was blood, sweat and lots of tears. I graduated in May of 2011. I landed a great job three days later and have been there ever since. Along with several of my extra jobs! Luskey’s was apart of my life for 6 and a half years, I loved my time there and am very sad they closed this past August 10,2013. I bought a house two years ago August 31,2011. I have loved every minute of a total home makeover! I have the stability i have always wanted. I have learned many life lessons from my family through happy, sad and many hardships along the way. My life is definitely based on my family and the experiences we have faced. I wouldn’t change any of it because I wouldn’t be who I am without them. I have met the love of my life and cannot wait to see where my future takes me, but until then I will continue live each day bettering me and my life.

My Favorite Month!

A complete list of the Prompts from:

Story Of My Life {Or simply Click The BlogTember Button}
Tuesday, Sept. 3: Describe where or what you come from. The people, the places, and/or the factors that make up who you are.

Wednesday, September 4: If you could take three months off from your current life and do anything in the world, what would you do? (bonus points for fun photos from Pinterest, but don't forget to cite the source!)

Thursday, September 5: Pass on some useful advice or information you learned and always remembered.

Friday, September 6: A story about a time you were very afraid.

Monday, September 9: Take this short personality test and respond to your results. (at the end, find the detailed profile of your personality account - click "click to view" under "You" and "self awareness and personal growth." You can even google your type and find more info on it!)

Tuesday, September 10: Describe a distinct moment when your life took a turn.

Wednesday, September 11: Share links to your favorite online shops, preferably with a few photos of your favorite items in each shop.

Thursday, September 12: Discuss ways that blogging or social media has changed you.

Friday, September 13: A self portrait

Monday, September 16: Write a public love letter to someone in your life. (It doesn't necessarily need to be romantic.)

Tuesday, September 17: A memory you would love to relive.

Wednesday, September 18: Only photos

Thursday, September 19: Creative writing day: write a (very short) fictional story that starts with this sentence: "To say I was dreading the dinner party would be the understatement of the century."

The story does not necessarily need to have a conclusion - you can leave your readers wishing for more!

Friday, September 20: React to this term: comfort.

Monday, September 23: A "life lately" post. What you're up to, how you're feeling, how you're doing on your goals, etc. Bonus points for great photos!

Tuesday, September 24: Review a book, place, or product.

Wednesday, September 25: Write about a time you screwed up - a mistake you made.

Thursday, September 26: Go to a coffee shop. Order a favorite drink. Write about what makes you happy and what makes you sad. Or write about anything you'd like! Bonus points for including a photo from the coffee shop. (I recommend downloadingOmmwriter and bringing headphones along!) *if you can't make it to a coffee shop, at least leave your usual space and write someplace new.

Friday, September 27: An anonymous letter to your Facebook friends. Be as snarky as you'd like. (but don't include people's real names.)

Monday, September 30: Share a photo of something old. Maybe something that has personal history for you, that was passed down to you, and that has special meaning to you. Tell us about it and why it's special.

 

I am so excited to face this challenge, being that i am a fairly new blogger and always struggle with what to write. I know that i write a lot about my own personal life and the happenings in it. It will be great to be given a prompt and use it as guidance. I cannot wait to get started tomorrow! Eventful week.

 

The 4 day weekend was fabulous, spent cleaning, with both families celebrating birthdays and tonight with family for burgers. I soon will get the dogs settled and my face washed for an early bedtime. I did get some resting in this weekend. I get spoiled to being kinda sorta lazy and cannot get back in the groove for the work week. I am on day 4 of 10 with my AdvoCare herbal cleanse.  Down three pounds in four days and have had no cokes! All clothes and drawers are cleaned out and ready for a new week. All clothes are put away and laundry done! I lack a few dishes which i will tackle tomorrow due to the slight pounding in the right side temple area. Hope everyone has a blessed week! Don’t forget to say your prayers!

Whitney

Terrible Two’s

I bet your wondering what type of Terrible Two’s that i am referring to since there are no actual children  in our house! It’s just the two of us and three munchkins. But what in fact, I am talking about is that for two whole years today I have been the soul owner of my very own home! It’s been a challenge, it’s been an adventure and to say the least sometimes it’s truly hard to be an adult and remember you have grown up responsibilities! But I wouldn’t trade my experience for the world. So here is what we are going to do! I am going to introduce you to me: Two years ago! I was a lost soul, in a world where i wasn’t sure where i belonged. I had dreams and goals, but at the time i wasn’t on a path to even sort of begin to get me there.

Little Miss two years ago

:

 

( Sorry this was a dark time)

The House Two Years Ago!

The First Year:

This period of life was filled with worry, wonder, questions but learning. It was a hard year, but i wouldn’t trade the time, memories, any of it as a matter of fact because it showed me who I am meant to be.

The First Year of the House:

 

Ahh Finally This Last Year:

The House: Almost Finished!

      

August 31, 2013

As I lay here and think back over the last couple of years, I know that all along God has had a plan in mind. I also know now, that by following my heart, no matter how right or wrong everyone else may have thought, I have found my true purpose. I have found my one true love, a man who loves, respects, and enjoys spending time with me. No matter how grouchy I may be. He takes care of me in ways i never knew possible. We have spent a lot of time together and a lot of time apart, but all the more i love and cherish every minute no matter what! He is a honest, hard working man with an amazing heart and a head on his shoulders. It’s not about money, fame and fortune, its about creating something more.  A good solid foundation to live on. As of now, no I don’t know where the rest of the path leads, but i know that I am a hard working, honest woman who can take care of herself. Which was one of my main goals in life. I have a purpose working with and for people to help their dreams come true. I will not stop until I make my dreams come true for myself first, my God and his purpose for me, and my future husband and family of my own. My parents, grandparents and close friends have set a great example. I will take a piece of all and sculpt the life i desire!

xoxo Whitney