Well a while for me is since August 31, 2013. Have I actually posted on here...yes! I participated in some Blogtember posts, but then this really cool thing happened & well I feel guilty playing on the computer a crazy amount of time when my lover is home. So thats why posts are few and far between! As much as I love sharing our life; I actually love even more...to share it with him in person! I did update some of my blog pages earlier last week when I had some downtime off of work.
To the meat of this hamburger.
I have been doing what I do best while alone...ill call it goaling. I have been thinking about my amazing AdvoCare team, my personal banking goals, my personal debt goals; ehh my life in general and well I become obcessed when it comes to this subject. Why you ask? MY BIGGEST FEAR in life is to fail financially. Yep I said it. Im absolutely terrified. Therefore, I obscess all the time trying to figure out " how to make the best better." Right now, tonight, there is no end in sight! But I did in fact realize over the past year, I personally tackled with AdvoCare 4000.00 in debt, in conjunction with 11,000 household debt. 15,000 total I know crazy, huh! Then I go on to be still, quiet to think about a dear friend of mines life who at the same age is so very different. Brooke has left her family, friends, hometown and normal life for a very different, scary, exciting adventure that I, myself could never embark upon because I could never give up the life here of obsessing. What a beautiful soul she is with a true calling and passion to serve the lord. She will live in Haiti for one whole year. I sit in awe when I think of her grace and love. God gave her those things. God gave me things too, a life- that could have been gone in an instant. But im here for an all so different purpose. Deep breath, be still, he is here, talking through me. What a blessing it is for me to be able to speak, type, feel that im serving some purpose in all the different roads I take in life. Some people dont wake up with a purpose? How do they get fulfillment out of life? I lay here in the silent light bedroom- wondering what my next purpose can be?
Deep thoughts. Quiet night. No sleep in sight. Thoughts spinning like the merry go round( faster, faster, we need another master) I hear. Im supposed to be studying. I purchsased my new study book for my CsT exam. Its here the time is here. I must not put it off again! Its out here in cyber space...as motivation! Ready set go!
♡whitney
