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So many of my daily thoughts should be left inside my head. But here lately I'm real tired of holding back. You win some, you lose some. I have never been a very self confident person. I've been through so many shitty things that I just don't even know what confidence is anymore. Most people say that "confidence" is a stain people can't wife up. Well mine has slowly been drowned in my own tears and more than that fears. So you ask why I continued to live the way I have. I have such a big heart I continue to try and see the good in people even if that means reading things I shouldn't have and knowing what I should do but continuing to try anyway. I know that one day no matter when someone will figure out what I'm worth even when I don't and cherish it and never do anything to jeapordize it. hopefully sooner than later. Because I feel like I'm walking down a paved road that's turning to dirt and once I hit the dirt I may never look back. A girl can only crumble before she cracks. What I can't figure out is how I deserve any of the things I know about but just can't confront them. So where do I go next?? Nope I'm not sure either
-until next time...Miss Whit

Location:Inside my head

At the end of the day?

What really matters?

We spend the majority of our lives running way too much and far too long and spend way too much time dwelling on the things in life that don’t really matter.

We go to school for at least 12 grades and we have no choice. It’s chosen for us. The majority of that time is spent being miserable. But we have absolutely no choice about being or not being there. When we get old enough to drive (16 years old) we might end up with some other freedoms. Driving, cars, hanging out with friends, in my case, involved beginning work. After those main 12 grades we than have a (Graduation). Everyone comes to celebrate the fact that you are A) still alive B) actually made it all 12 grades without getting into any major trouble or flunking out c) and the fact that they hope you have chosen to go on and make your life better by attending (COLLEGE).

(College)- Well there are several different ways you can go about this. You can have way too much fun and barely even make it through...some don’t. You can work your butt off and be done in just 2 years, or you can keep continuing your education because you’re just not happy… (Ever) and keep adding letters to the back of your name. Most of this time involves working to either A) support yourself, your family if you chose that route first, B) support your bad habits, or C) support yourself and the education you’re getting.

In the mean time of all of this time some may have either A) found love and lost it B) had their heart broken once, twice or maybe even a million times and are still searching c) found the person you love and want your (forever) with and they still quite aren’t sure, or D) or its combo of two people who love one another unconditionally E) MARRIED.

You’re (CAREER) well. This is supposed to be something you have a complete 100% passion for and can’t wait to wake up every day to do. (Careers) can be brought about by any way. You could have slaved away in school for years just trying to get your degree, you could have gone to a type of trade school, or you could just have happened upon a great opportunity.  Whatever it may be it’s just a great thing to have. Believe it or not we must have a job or career one we love or hate either way we must have something. We cannot survive without a job of some sort. Believe it or not we all have bills to pay. People to take care of being it a family or be it just yourself.

(DREAMS) are what we see in our future when we are just little girls. We see it almost as a fairy tale. One that we just can’t wait to grow up and see for ourselves. When I was little girl, like most I planned my perfect wedding to my perfect man and it was beautiful. It was extraordinary. It was my dream. Ever since I was little girl and fought a battle that some aren’t so lucky to win I have had the dream to do great things. I have a passion for people, because certain people had the passion to help the man upstairs save my life. I have this passion for life, and making others happy. I am always trying to be someone’s saving grace. I am always trying to save others.  I stick around way to long, a let people push me way to far, and I know that I should learn my lesson but I just can’t. But I always follow my heart. I may be ignoring the biggest signs. But I will always put my best effort into anything and hang on for too long. But I have a love in my heart for a person who I cannot imagine my life without. Things get tough and I get tested I get frustrated and I get ready to just flat out give up. What keeps me holding on?

(LOVE) I do believe after everything we have been through and I promise it’s been more than I would have ever been willing to handle. I get so angry and frustrated with the situation we are in. I have never actually been so happy to be around someone so much. At first I was terrified of the moving in step, moving home…because I have always been alone. In unhealthy relationships that would have never worked. But I actually want a life, with this person. He is normally there no matter when or what I need. He makes me laugh. He makes me question my old beliefs in love and life. He challenges me every day. A lot recently I have been thinking very hard because I have never felt so drained and challenged. What’s best for me, what is he really wanting, what are the thoughts in his head, am I overreacting, and I’m being a brat….I’m struggling.

So you (see) my main point. WE get so caught up in our everyday lives and all the hustle and bustle, of job, no job, new friends, old friends, new life, old life, stress, anger, fear, and worry that we truly forget what’s important.

(Love) is the only real thing that will get us through each day. Don’t forget to appreciate the ones who love you, that worry about you, that fear losing you and the life they have with you, and you fear losing the life that you have with them. (BECAUSE) your job, friends, enemies, trouble, old life are supposed to still exist, but the life you make with the love of your life is supposed to be number one.

(YOU) need someone to support you, hold your hand, pat your back, wake up with every morning, scratch your back, love you unconditionally, make you laugh, be your biggest fan, because your friends, family, job, children are just a plus! & you need it all to make a life.

The (point) is don’t forget or leave behind the ones you can’t picture your life without, because they might eventually not be there. Tomorrow is NEVER a guarantee.

Sacrifices

Haven't blogged in awhile. Frankly I've been crazy busy! So much going on in this crazy little life I live.

But mainly the reason for my blog tonight & late night blog at that is a heavy heart. Some feel as though this could be whining because I don't have it bad at all. We have military men an women who are away from their families while protecting our country and giving us our many freedoms. There are also ones who have lost the ones who mean the most to them. So when I say what I'm about to say please understand I'm not whining. Just simply being a tad sad & hoping one day the back and forth, short weekends, hustle and bustle can become a slow life of love but mainly enjoyed together.

Everyone makes sacrifices in this life we all live. We make those sacrifices to be able to live. To give. To love. To smile. To be happy and to share your life....with others. We all think we have been in love before, some have...but in my case I do believe it's all been a chapter in my book leading up to what love really is. Believe it or not love is laughing, giving your all to someone else and for someone else, to make them happy, doing for them and expecting nothing in return, falling and not being afraid, doing things that you may not totally enjoy but you do it because you support your life, love and will do anything to ensure there happiness even if sometimes its hard on you. It's hard on them too, even if they don't show it. So next time you whine and think why do I work so much or spend so much time on some project or even if it's the dishes or laundry, know that it's the little sacrifices that everyone does for the loves in their life. Tonight I miss my love and I don't enjoy this empty house. But I thank him for loving what he does and having a passion to do his best for him and even for me. However I do pray that one day we can spend life together more. Believe it or not I do kinda love the guy!


-until next time...Miss Whit

ITS 2012!

New Years & Resolutions

To start off the weekend I got a new little toy for us to enjoy!

I haven’t actually quite figured it all out yet, but ohhhh well!

Its super cute & im actually enjoying it!

I have even nearly finished my first book on it!

& I truly recommend the book!

After a short trip to Big springs to help Tom get his Pete back on the road I spent Saturday doing laundry & cleaning getting ready for our company

-THE GRISSOMS & Miss Glitter!

They arrived & we had a little lunch & conversation! Lunch consisted of Pork Chops, Boneless Ribs, Homemade Mac N Cheese, Green beans &  My favorite red potatoes! The boys & their tight pants went to weld some brackets

and us girls & the pups

Had a day of chatting & the pups playing!

WE RANG in the New Year with family & friends playing beer pong at the Hart’s House! & came home to crash!

NOW LETS GET TO THE NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS

First We are getting in Shape

Im pretty sure ill regret this choice soon!!!!

AHHHH---- I can already feel the pain!!

Next im getting back tan

BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL better about myself

( Yes, I understand its not good for me)

OH WELL, sue me!

The next of my resolutions is to try and learn more each day about my sweetheart, and to become a better person doing it! I want to work on me as a person, employee, daughter, girlfriend. I dont want to miss a beat in life and i want to be the happiest, most full of love and life person i can be for myself and others!  I worked very hard last year in making sure I was financially responcible so that I wouldn’t hsve to worry so much about what I did and didn’t spend money on! This year I will continue & try and become even better at it. I want to become closer with the lord & slow down and enjoy life instead of working so much & being a walking zombuie!

2011- Was definitely a year of ups and downs and crazy turns along the way! I graduated college, got  a great job, fell in love with my best friend and bought a house! We all have our days of down & trouble but thankfully I have great friends, wonderful families, a great lord and my best friend standing next to me!

So 2012- lets do this! You can only get more wonderful! 

From Our little home to yours

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Our New Little(Big) Family Addition

Family Addition….

For all of you who know either one of us you know...

We both most definitely love animals.

I have been wanting another dog since i moved in September.

Prince( my two year old Min pin)

simply needs a friend.

I really, really, really wanted prince a girlfriend...

but i figured it was in my best interest to decide against this..

(cough, cough)

Casey started looking at some of the animal shelters

He began sending me pictures, yesterday, of this little guy

who was pretty cute.

& i simply knew all too soon

WE would have a new guy at the house

EVERYONE I WOULD LIKE YOU TO MEET...

(Sanford)

But once he has been around a little while

all kind of names have been thrown in the air for him

Waylon( Jennings)

Merle (Haggard)

then somehow

TIG....(it is)

We have already had our first near death experience...

i will admit im not a fan

this

NEW (stage) 

better be gone quick.

goodnight.

What I'm Liking Wednesday... :)

What I’m liking Wednesday

First off , I am loving that  we have recently ripped up the guest bedroom & hall carpet to refinish the wood floors. We have only gotten started……

(this isnt actually our guest room)

Next, my sweetheart has so graciously taped off our guest bedroom & once the paint sprayer is fixed ,it will get painted.  Since he has been home I am so thankful for all the help making our house a “HOME.”

(this once again isnt our guest room)

My newest purse family addition

(Merry Christmas to & from me)

The mini love in my life

Is getting use d to some changes :

for instance

(His new bed)

                         He might have a new awakening coming soon

            WE are in search of a new friend & family member for him!

                                 

OMGEEEEEE! Aren’t these precious!

                                   Cant wait to eventually meet this little bundle!

                                                                                                                                               (a dear friends)

Well even though I couldn’t get the tree lights to come on

I have finally finished wrapping presents

(finally)

Well im off to enjoy the rest of my OH sooo busy day!

Feels good to know im where im supposed to be!

IM OH SO BLESSED.

Happy, Merry Christmas week!

  

& It’s beginning to look a LOT like Christmas

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Its beginning to look a LOT like Christmas


Super excited to say that its looking like Christmas at the house

I have always said you cant start Christmas until after Thanksgiving sooo…

When I came home from working the CRAZY BLACK FRIDAY MADDNESS!

My honey and parents had the Christmas lights put on the house

I Have to admit, I kinda teared up…

because it was such a sweet thing

for me to come home to.

All the Christmas Presents I had gotten before this week

Were for that sweet honey of mine

Let me tell you once more!!!

I LOVE BUYING PEOPLE PRESENTS

But I am terrible at keeping the secrets.

So this year as soon as I bought all this presents

I also bought wrapping paper and all accessories

I went straight home and wrapped them up

& hid them in the closet

LAST Sunday after Casey left I put up the Christmas Tree

At first it was kinda missing some lights

But I still decorated it anyway….

YES it's a chunky, funky, GIRLISH tree

THIS WEEKEND

I had all three days off work

SO when I got off work Friday I went & finished the MOST of my Christmas Shopping

I was in search of several things:

A big gift for my dad

Which I actually found & got someone else one too because they were AWESOME

Stocking stuffers (for the families)

& some super cute stuff for our Moms!

But on my little adventure the biggest thing I wanted was

A&M stocking for Casey(didn't find a single one)

But I did find some super cute

To add to our Tree since I decorated GIRLY to begin with

I also bought a Maroon tree skirt

Since

The tree topper is…PURPLE

This was only half the bags I started with

OUR very girlish/ A&M
Christmas
tree

I was super excited about it…

We are now at Satuday & I spent most of the day cleaning the house

Finishing Christmas Decorating

& my favorite wrapping all the gifts!

 

TAAAADAHHHHHH!

MERRY SATURDAY EVERYONE!

Unitl next time…MISS WHIT