By
definition; Happiness is a mental state of well-being characterized by
positive emotions ranging from contentment to
intense joy.
Each
day as human beings we wake up and try to fulfill our true happiness or
at
least that is my goal. The saying "we never know whats missing until it
arrives" is very true. I have been through quite a few friendships,
relationships
and things in my life that the only thing i want to remember
them for is the
fact that its over, i survived it and i learned something from it.
As
long as i wake up each day and give everyone 100% or more of me and my
time i
will regret nothing in this life. I was put on this earth by God, who
created
me. He crafted me in a way sometimes i wonder, why me. Only because
some of the
things he has given me to handle have been tough. He also blessed
me with this
huge heart who gets me in trouble more than i think it gets me
anywhere. But i
know that sometime, it will in fact show me why the heck i
have it. I really
believe i have a compassion for people. I love people and if i am
putting a
smile on their face, no matter what I am going through it is still
worth it. I
have been told "you are too good" well yes, i do believe sometimes
this may be true. Its my nature. its the way god made me and i cant help but
continue to do things that make other people happy even if sometimes that
includes forgetting about making myself happy. I can be selfish,
insecure,
untrusting, mad, happy, jealous, loving, caring, compassionate, i can
even be
indifferent, but those are all feelings and things that make me up. I
just want
to find my true happiness, although i believe i have found it and its
just taking
a bit of roller coaster ride for the time being. I think that is
gods way of
testing me to see how i will handle the situation; his way or that
little red
man downstairs. I choose to be bigger and to give it all i have
until he shows
me something different. Most of the time i spend in a day is
thinking,
wondering and being skeptical of every situation that i face. I never
know
where its going, and as much as i just wish i knew gods plan for me i
don't. I
hate wondering whats next. I guess im kinda compulsive that way. That
i feel
like i need to be in control of all things in my life when really its
not my
choice. my book has already been written. So my new goal is to walk with
grace, dignity, beauty, and try everyday to remember i am living my life for
him and he will show me the next step. it may not be in my timing or even in
anyone else's but in his. I will love the people he has put into my life and
give
them my best or better until he shows me that its time for them to move
on.
All
i ask of everyone in return is that you also give me your best, and you
remember that the people you love and care about can be taken at any time.
So
make sure that you let them know each day how important they are and
thank God
for putting these people in your life because he can take them away.
until
next time...just something to think about.
