Happy Halloween

Friday- My day started out normal as any other day, surgeries all morning & then we got to go over to the Hospital for a repair! I love my job but dang I sure miss the heat of being in the OR. Even though it’s a hurry up and wait game sometimes.

Then, we got to start Our weekend  with Casey coming in from McCamey…we were all so excited to see him. An evening with my love and friends was wonderful.

We slept in and were lazy most of Saturday resting up for the big Halloween party! At Billie Jean & Eds.

Happy Halloween from, The Flinstones

Of course casey didn’t leave his Costume on long but at least he was a good sport & wore it to begin with!

After the party we continued hanging out with friends which pretty much turned into an all night adventure , yep we will leave it at that! ha! 

Sunday- was a huge lazy day with a little cleaning, laundry & a little firewood hauling...followed by a little fence building so that my little prince man can now run around his yard instead of being on that stinking chain!

Now that it is actually Halloween, i kinda feel but but Casey is gone again, Prince man and I have the porch light off & are cuddled up watching hocus pocus while waiting on the laundry to dry so that we can fold it and hop in bed! 

So 

From all of us at the little Castle we call home

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

From this day...Forward

FROM THIS DAY FORWARD

I will no longer

Doubt

or 

Hesitate 

Be Rude…

because

Worry too much

Forget that

 I will always

Be thankful 

Remember

Seek the lord

because

 Believe

I will

Know that, even though

&

BUT I WILL NO LONGER LIVE IN THE PAST

because

My Book is already written and ill follow his lead wherever it takes me.

until..next time

Goodnight.

Speechless...

Its the little things...

First thing this morning… my day definitely started out with a little oversleeping resulting in being just a tad late for work. But ill promise I was thankful for the little bit of extra rest.

Everything was running pretty smoothly for me, even  oversleeping and everything.  Surgery is finished for the day and we were just waiting on one last patient when someone approached with something very gorgeous in his hand. A friend and co worker said wonder who those flowers are for…little did I know they were for me. I have received flowers once before from this special person I like to call mine. But I definitely wasn’t expecting these today!

They are ohhh so beautiful & make my day!

Thank you babe, you’re the best!

As beautiful as the flowers were when I opened the card I smiled even bigger…I LOVE YOU TOO J

Thank you for my beautiful flowers, such a simple but wonderful gift and I appreciate it more than you know. I hope you are having a wonderful day & I miss you very much! Love you

What defines happiness?

By definition; Happiness is a mental state of well-being characterized by positive emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.

Each day as human beings we wake up and try to fulfill our true happiness or 

at least that is my goal. The saying "we never know whats missing until it 

arrives" is very true. I have been through quite a few friendships, 

relationships and things in my life that the only thing i want to remember 

them for is the fact that its over, i survived it and i learned something from it.

As long as i wake up each day and give everyone 100% or more of me and my 

time i will regret nothing in this life. I was put on this earth by God, who 

created me. He crafted me in a way sometimes i wonder, why me. Only because

some of the things he has given me to handle have been tough. He also blessed 

me with this huge heart who gets me in trouble more than i think it gets me 

anywhere. But i know that sometime, it will in fact show me why the heck i 

have it. I really believe i have a compassion for people. I love people and if i am 

putting a smile on their face, no matter what I am going through it is still 

worth it. I have been told "you are too good" well yes, i do believe sometimes 

this may be true. Its my nature. its the way god made me and i cant help but 

continue to do things that make other people happy even if sometimes that 

includes forgetting about making myself happy.  I can be selfish, insecure, 

untrusting, mad, happy, jealous, loving, caring, compassionate, i can even be 

indifferent, but those are all feelings and things that make me up. I just want 

to find my true happiness, although i believe i have found it and its just taking 

a bit of roller coaster ride for the time being. I think that is gods way of 

testing me to see how i will handle the situation; his way or that little red 

man downstairs. I choose to be bigger and to give it all i have until he shows 

me something different. Most of the time i spend in a day is thinking, 

wondering and being skeptical of every situation that i face. I never know 

where its going, and as much as i just wish i knew gods plan for me i don't. I 

hate wondering whats next. I guess im kinda compulsive that way. That i feel 

like i need to be in control of all things in my life when really its not my 

choice. my book has already been written. So my new goal is to walk with 

grace, dignity, beauty, and try everyday to remember i am living my life for 

him and he will show me the next step. it may not be in my timing or even in 

anyone else's but in his. I will love the people he has put into my life and give 

them my best or better until he shows me that its time for them to move on.

All i ask of everyone in return is that you also give me your best, and you 

remember that the people you love and care about can be taken at any time. 

So make sure that you let them know each day how important they are and 

thank God for putting these people in your life because he can take them away.

until next time...just something to think about.

My Dilema.....

For all of you who know me real well you know that I get slightly bored very quickly with my hair…. I have come to the conclusion of trying to grow my hair back out is nearly impossible. I just cant handle it once it gets to a certain length! I start to lose my own mind.

So i know your thinking...what no way! Basically i like the simpson cut with the color style of Jess from the rock of love first season...but NOT the blonde and pink. but a dark color with a blonde...or something fun! Comments...welcome

What I am liking

What I’m liking Wednesday

Even though today started out a little on the sad end I still tried to find some beauty in today!

 ALl of these cute ideas were found on pinterest which is my new found addiction! I'm going to be upset because i didn't crop the stuff out but truthfully im getting sleepy! 

It's pretty quiet around here tonight, my man left this morning & my puppy is with his grandparents....im not real sure i like this quietness. To get my little prince man tomorrow after work is where you can find me tomorrow! 

Goodnight all!

These are just a few little things that i found last night while playing around on Pinterest that kind of sum up the feelings running through me lately.

Just a few little signs of what im thinking today! Yes.. I know it’s a lot

Have a happy Wednesday everyone!

Confidence, Grace, Beauty

WAS I wired this way?

Every morning when I wake up and drag myself out of my overly warm bed, I think The Lord created this day and I am lucky enough to be waking up to live it.

Let’s see what today has in store.

The other morning I was playing around of facebook and I came across a blog from my high school basketball coaches daughter. When I was playing basketball I saw her as this gorgeous basketball star. Who I thought was full confidence and grace in life and on the basketball court. She is now grown, married and has two beautiful children. But this blog she posted goes to show how everyone really feels on the inside, even though others see it very differently. Thanks Diana, you made me realize some things I wasn’t aware of about myself.

Since I was a little girl I have never been the most confident person, the prettiest, smartest, I even have quite a few blonde moments (even though imp a brunette). I wasn’t the sports star or the homecoming queen, but I did have my own little niche. I was raised in the country with a very loving family who pushed me to the limit and where I learned nothing but hard work. I raised many animals and even all through my life I showed animals and even decided I would judge and run for FFA president in high school. I spent most of my time in the Ag barn working on whatever project was most important at the time. But I also spent 40 + hours at work a week.

So where does my confidence lits ...obviously it doesn’t lie on the outside. It must lie deep, deep inside where I have to wake up and search for it each day. Don’t get me wrong I do feel like I have many accomplishments for my age. Yes, I do feel like, for a 21 year old girl who has already graduated with a certification that I wake up loving everyday, and a recent owner of my very own, adorable little house that will only become more AWESOME with time. I still don’t really know where my true confidence lies. I wake up some days feeling like the most beautiful girl in the world...but most days I think goodness how will I get through this day without worrying about some aspect of my life. Whether it is my family, my finances, jobs, my friends, my man- and all the things that come with him, I KNOW I will worry about something. Who, where, why does this problem exist? I guess I am figuring out each day that I am the problem. I worry too much, but im not sure how to stop it. My worrying affects my everyday life.
I have major trust issues to due many things in the past and I can turn one little thing into something that I can be upset about for days. This is one of my biggest flaws and I wish for anything that I can change it. My not trusting people really puts a damper on many things. I am bad to look for faults in others that someone else once got me with. I try everyday to over come this horrible habit. But im tired of being hurt the same way each time. I know im not perfect but I do wake up everyday being as true to others as a I am to my ownself because I want the same treatment from others.

I am always trying to make people happy, or do things for them, or just make them more important in my life than I actually make myself. Where does this get me, no where? But once again its part of my nature, the routine of my everyday life. I just want to be important, and yes I know I am important to many people, but this is on a different level...gashhh listen to me whining. I didn’t get any sleep last night due to a new crating process im trying with my two year old miniature pinscher. IM SLEEPY and i need a nap.

BUT, really this is all something that has just been on my mind and I guess the only real way to fix it is pray about it. So if you cant find me today, tomorrow, or the next year well im trying to figure it out and pray that all my choices ive made here lately are for my best interest and its really as important to the other person as it is to me. 


Maybe one day ill find my confidence, grace, beauty for me. Not for anyone else.