Roller Coaster Ride

It’s a Roller Coaster Ride

The past month has been such an eye opener for me.  I never saw myself here. Lying on my couch with my sweet princer dog, watching my TV, in my own 2 bedroom, 1 bathroom house. I have worked my whole life to do great things. Things that I along with my family could be proud of. But if you would have told me a year ago that I would already be here, id have laughed in your face. Not because the thought didn’t cross my mind but I was in such a different place than I am now. I pictured myself already being married. But guess what I’m not. My mama always said when I was younger I didn’t need to get married before I lived my life for myself. Well guess what mama I think I’m doing it…All by myself. I proved to myself and everyone else that I don’t in fact need someone else to take care of me. There is a special person very near and dear to my heart. It’s a work in progress on an unknown road. But I’m happy and I’ll take it. I’m tired of worrying about who, what, when, how, why. This life is about me and the people I love and god will show me who, what, when, now and even why. I know that I haven’t always made choices the way that they see fit. But this is my life and ill give anyone or anything a fight, chance, help if I see fit. I might have gotten burned but one day I won’t get burned for having a big helping heart. No one can ever say that I don’t have my own opinion because I’ll let you know anytime you need. My new adventure that I have begun has already been incredible. I enjoy working on the house and having a place to call my own. I am proud of it and myself. I will continue to pour my heart and hard work into it. It’s already been so much fun! I love my project, my life, and my new adventure down a little road….even though I don’t know where I’m going. But for once I’m ok with it.

Now until next time you can find me riding my own personal roller coaster!