Tomorrow...

Tomorrow marks a big, possibly huge step for me. Why you ask?

Well because I am going to start seeing a counselor. (terrifying) I know. The first time someone mentioned this idea to me I absolutely BLOCKED it out. I didn't want anything to do with it. I thought only crazy people see shrinks. Nope this isn't like that. It's sitting down and having a conversation wit someone who is biased and choosing sides in my everyday life.

My support system is GREAT.

But, a lot of times talking to certain parts of it cause tension and maybe even some judgement on what I'm talking to them about. Or it causes relationships to in a sense separate. Sometimes I am my own worst enemy.

Why you ask?
My past isn't the prettiest thing in the world. Actually the majority of it is pretty screwed up. That big ole heart of mine kept me hanging on too long. After way to much bullshit I finally wised up and got out.

Our pasts do in fact shape us and make the life we want easier to figure out. But sometimes they can be detrimental to new friendships and mainly relationships. Our past also shapes confidence or in my case diminished it.

Confidence is something I'm definitely lacking. I don't know why. I've worked my rear off for everything that I have. And for a 21 year old in our time and day, I don't believe many compare. Confident statement or Cocky? So maybe I do have a little confidence left.

But it's time to turn a little bit into happy, confident, pretty-girl who is fearless and won't stop at anything to live her happily ever after. Before its to late.

I have the lord on my side and it's time to figure out where I'm headed and what road I need to take to get there. No more looking back. And only continue with the people who are really willing to stand beside me and put me first!

Here's to tomorrow & big steps towards the right road!

Because we aren't ever promised tomorrow and I wanna make sure I live my life to the FULLEST.



-until next time...Miss Whit