I saw lonely tonight

 Tonight after cooking an amazing dinner…for myself I realized how much this really sucks. I know that we are supposed to be happy and proud of people when they accomplish things, get new jobs, etc.  but this really sucks. After spending one whole hour a week with my counselor I have really learned many things about myself. One being  that I have never  really relied on anyone else to actually be there for  me. I’m normally scared to rely on anyone being there. That doesn’t mean I don’t have a great support system. If you haven’t seen them you might check out the tab at the top of my blog THE PIECES TO MY PUZZLE (this page is currently undergoing some renovation) so please bare with me, some of my support system is in fact missing! I’m still redesigning it. But here is the deal. As great as a group I have standing behind me, tonight I feel like the one standing beside me is missing. I got to cook a fabulous dinner…for who? Myself…I am so proud of my handsome man, but I sure am missing him. Bottom line. I miss my best friend. My puppies are here but its just not the same. He is off  working his little booty off and I am very, very, so very proud of him and all he does for me. He is so busy so I don’t get to talk to him much…grrr. Well I guess I will stop whining and find something to do

Just PERFECT

Garlic & Herb Reds

Steak 

Bon Appetit