This Thoughtful thursday

Thoughtful Thursday

My thoughts for this Thursday should probably be kept to myself… but on another note.

How well do you really know me?

Let me ask you? On a scale from ONE to TEN : Where do you think you land?

(Lately I have really been looking into and studying myself at a deeper level than is really comfortable. But in order to become the person I long to be: It’s a must.)

SOOOOOOOOO

(I bet I can answer the question in only a matter of a few seconds)

Most of you know me about a five because I never open up enough to let you really get in my head.

Some of you know me at a deeper level of more like a seven and truthfully that’s about as close as ill get you get.

I can probably say that no one knows me to a ten, because this is where my problem lies. I will not let anyone break down that barrier totally because it leaves me open and vulnerable.

I am working very hard for some special individuals to be able to know me at a deeper level and it will really be a stretch and out of my comfort zone. (But the relationships do serve a greater purpose in my life, so I do believe the stretch and discomfort will be rewarding and worth it at some point.)

If your close and want to know me to a deeper level I need your help and we can achieve this. BUT I will need your help too: to know that the risk of me letting the layers be peeled back and for me to be completely open and vulnerable that you’re willing to understand me and my effort.  

Another thought for the day: someone said this very well “We should tend to our own rat killing”

So today: “ill be tending to my own rat killing.”